I Won’t Go Back

他说，朋友朋友。我想，朋友不用一直说朋友，除非在他眼里，我不只把他当朋友。如果换作以前，他猜对了。现在却不至于这样三番四次提醒我，说真我会反感。刚刚故意迟回复，结果就再也没收到回复。这正正形容着我们的故事，永远都不会有火花。或许是你多想，或者是我猜错。但其实，我已经不会再回头。

No

Feel like going blind or deaf at the moment,

because you tell me too much,

secrets overloaded.

I  won’t tell anyone,

but I can foresee what is going to happen.

After all, nightmares sleep with me,

most of the time.

In Here I Found ‘

8 out of 9

will appear in the book, in a raw form that you can digest it the way you like.

So be hungry. It’s good to wait for a while.

Why

Don’t ever think that you could read people’s mind perfectly each and every time. When you fall short of it, regret and guiltiness follow you, maybe for the rest of your life. Because people do lie, because people do hide, from all of the feelings and urges deep inside the heart, cruelly shout away someone you love right in front. The reason is not important anymore, whether you have one or you are being unknown to it.

A strong surface. A weak inside. We choose not to break down in the day for the cheap dignity, but the heart softens when night comes. Cry and drink. We never win. And all of a sudden I realized that people find it hard to be true at all times. Wanting someone to stay, I could not even say a word about it. The very stupid solution would only be smiling to the person and saying goodbye silently. Until the person was gone, I traced his or her life. See, I lied. Sometimes my heart was so heavy and broken that I wanted to just tell the person whatever that came across my mind. All. But I didn’t.

To me, this kind of move does not sound good. I would have ruined people’s life with words, and I can’t find a reason for that, because I won’t be happy anyways. So I go, far far away. Never thought that time heals wounds. In fact it did. Perhaps I’m lucky enough to have everything back to normal. Wish, I won’t lose it again.

Track: Is This The End – Zee Avi

Is this the end?
Why does it feel
like we’d only just begun?
I thought we were done.

I think I’ll hang on
if you still want me,
but if you don’t
I guess I’ll move on.